Correction

Alright, i take back what i said about my boyfriend. Well i don't take it back, i've just relaxed so am now able to fully explain myself (i should really be studying right now.. haha)
First off; he checks girls out and flirts with them right infront of me. Sure it makes me feel like he's searching for something i don't have and that he craves in a women but should i really feel bad about him doing that? It is insulting when he flirts with girls right there in my face but it's him right.. i know he won't actually do anything. I'm the one he wants, i'm the one he goes to afterwards and kisses. It's a simple game of fun.. but then why can't i find myself doing the same thing? I don't dare check another man out nor flirt. Maybe we're just two different people and commitment is something different to each of us... who knows. Plus he's a guy.. that's what they do right?
Secondly; his ex. you knew this one was coming up.. nothing i can really do or say. He's going to talk to her no matter what. Not like i'd tell him to stop anyways.. it's just weird. especially (like i said before..) since they started talking once he lost attraction to me. Kind of like i pushed him back into her arms type thing. All i can do is suck it up, and look the other way whenever i see her name pop up on his iPhone...
Thirdly (is that a word?); he's amazing. I know i say (or will say) things that make him seem like a bad boyfriend who is a pig but no. He does the sweetest things for me like take me all the way home whenever we go out together (may not seem like much but when you live 40 minutes away from eachother it is.. ) He buys me muffins in the morning (today was the first time actually :p), kisses me just for the sake of it, squeezes me real tight; kind of like he never wants to let me go. Tell me he loves me more than i can count on a daily basis. He's simply amazing and i love him with all my heart..
it's just right now, right right now.. my head isn't straight and i just wish i could leave this earth for a little bit. Get away from it all, but sadly the only way that is possible is through my dreams..