Speaking of my boyfriend, it's our 6 month anniversary tomorrow. He's running for a spot in our student body council and well; he's very nervous. How do i know? Well he's treating me like shit. Thing is; i don't blame him. I'm going to my best-friend's prom.. a guy whom my boyfriend isn't to fond of. So he's going off telling me a bunch of shit, really making me want to cry but eh, what can i do besides tell him to stop and just take it like a man really? It's nothing new, i'm his pushing bag just like i'm everybody elses.. but his punches hurt the most.
The one that hurt the most; when he told me he doesn't fully trust me. He actually thinks i'm going to go and whore it up at the prom.. um, news flash. I'm loyal. I love him to death and would never ever hurt him.. sadly it seems like it's the other way around for him. I always find myself on the other side of his fuse..
it gets hard.. real real hard. I remember one day, i fought, i fought extremely hard not to pick up that pin.. and i lost that fight and am now stuck with yet an other scarr. If only it was the lightning bolt on my forehead and not a one somewhere else. Whatever; you live and you learn right? I shouldnt even be exposing this type of stuff because i know he's reading this. I posted it on my twitter (probably mistake on my part)..
Whatever, i love my baby. He's meant for me and i'm meant for him. I hope that nothing and no one can nor will come in between us because i can honestly say i can't see myself with anybody else. Nor do i want to be with anyone else. Few months into seeing each other and i already know he's the one.. he's my everything. And i don't want to lose him. So i gotta toughen it out, i must remember that when he spazzes at me like this, it's because he's stressed or nervous.. doesn't mean it's right but whatever it takes for me to be with my baby, best believe i'ma do it.
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