orientation.. sexual that is.

Gay. Lesbian. Bisexual. Transgender. Straight.
Does it all really matter? Should other people really care about who you love? Why do they feel the need to say it's 'wrong' for people of the same sexe to love each other, intimately and emotionaly? Personally, i don't get what their problem is. If you love someone, if that person makes you exceptionally happy, if they make you feel loved, at peace, make the best of you shine.. does it really matter if they are the same sexe as you or not? According to A LOT of people out there, it does. And every time someone tells me that it's wrong; that it's like trying to plug two plugs together, all i can do is just shake my head in dissagreement. It's not like i can really say "you don't know what it's like for us" because can i really consider myself one of 'them'? Sure i have had a thing for women.. a really big thing, but i don't anymore.. so what is that considered, a phase? Someone told me (well it was my boyfriend) that they don't believe that i was a true 'lesbian' because sure i might of liked the idea of being with a women, but i didn't necessarily like the women. Get it? I'm sure every girl has a 'girl crush' and maybe i had a few.. and i also had the mentality that i wanted to be with those girls. Like i could see myself with them, buying them gifts, taking them out, kissing them, holding them.. but it never went further than that, nothing truly sexual. Which now has me thinking, was i simply lonely and wanted someone to treat me the way i wanted to treat those women (one in particular Alex Thomopoulos). I wanted to feel loved, and wanted someone to do all those special things for me so i would picture myself with a women so i could fulfill that need of feeling special by treating a woman special.. does that make ANY sense? I wanted to play the role of the alpha-male in the relationship so i could show how it's done, how to really be there for a women. But now, now that i have a man in my life.. a man that makes me feel loved, wanted, special, safe, 'golden' i no longer have that desire for women.. i no longer have those thoughts, nor feelings for them.. so i guess you can say it was a phase. One that i had mistook for bisexuality. Don't get me wrong, i still have those moments where i can't help but look at a woman and smile on the inside, women are beautiful.. but my man is gorgeous. & no one can take him away from me.
I could never tell him, which is why i am telling you guys.. my boyfriend was right (i think it's time i give him a nickname since i mention him so much in this blog).. i knew from the first time he told me that he thought what i was going through was a simple phase, i just never admitted it to him because well knowing him he'd never let me hear the end of it.. but that doesn't mean that his comments on how wrong it is should be taken lightly.. but then again, it's his opnion, and in the words of T.I. "Opinions are like escalades, everybody got one"